Pictures of Myself!

Well, I'm not as good as some of you out there, but I was listening to some music that has calmed my nerves while also working on some pictures of myself I took eight hours ago, after posting, I'll be going to bed.  I hope you enjoy these:

The last picture I posted, the one directly above the text, here, is one I want to briefly touch on.  I got the idea from those that have their doors closed to gays and homosexuals.  This really depicts my heart on the matter.  The fact that everyone ELSE is inside listening and learning and I've been locked out and have not been welcomed in.

Now, I know, I know I should work on different things other than those of me, but, haha, I find doing this is just awesome and I don't just limit myself to "tweaking" just pictures of myself, I also do nature and other people, only if they ask because natural beauty is always a reality look.  Thanks for looking, guys and a goodnight, I'm off to bed!!!

-Justin

My Icon!!!

You know what is just crazy in my opinion?  There is not enough honest material on one of the best comedians that ever lived.  Yes, I’m referring to the first lady of television, Lucille Ball.  I grew up watching the famed and popular, “I Love Lucy” along with watching a few films that she was in co-starring Desi Arnaz, but I guess the truth is just haunting about her.  I mean, can’t there be anything good about her?  According to the facts, she was a very depressed individual.  When the divorce was final between her and Desi, things just got worse for her.  She became rude and demanding when trying to make “The Lucy Show.”

 

I find it really sad.  It’s a shame that someone as beautiful and talented as Desi Arnaz (who played Ricky in the show) was a womanizer and an alcoholic, especially after Lucy would not agree to “I Love Lucy” without him as her husband.  I find it said things fell apart for them because I know that she would be more revered today if everything wasn’t so “personal” and “hush-hush.”  I mean, she was a great businesswoman, but look at how her daughter turned out.   After hearing her, I must confess that she is one of the worst singers I have ever heard and she makes a living defaming her mother that basically gave her such a comfortable and padded life.  I find that sad, disgusting and just disheartening.  The family is torn, the memorabilia is just not out there.  The facts aren’t out there as they should be for someone who brought so much happiness to hundreds of thousands of people, it’s just treated like, “Oh, that was someone that made me laugh,” and that’s it.  I mean, that’s my take.  Maybe you disagree, but to be honest, I can’t seem to understand why this has to happen where “times change,” or whatever.  Well, in my view, anyway. 

The thing is that she still makes me laugh and I will forever cherish and treasure such an icon as she was before her death in 1989.  She was a beautiful, talented woman who was quick witted and knew what she wanted and how to get it.  Classics never die and she will always be enjoyed by me!  I Love Lucy!!!!!!!!

My Mother!

More than anyone or anything, if I had to love one person for the rest of my life, I would choose my mother.  Upon hearing the news of a hellish disease, called Diverticulitis, I was distraught beyond measure.  What is that?  

Well, it’s when swelling (inflammation) occurs of an abnormal pouch (diverticulum) in the intestinal wall. These pouches are usually found in the large intestine (colon).  According to the experts, 10 to 25 percent of those who have it require surgery to eliminate the chance of more severe problems as a cause of infections.  It is painful and she has major diarrhea.  My mother is one of the most gracious and most beautiful people.  I respect her and love her and the reason is because she’s the only one who has truly accepted me for who I am, no matter who I ended up to be after stepping out the house to go to school.  

I talked to her for a good hour the other day, sobbing and crying when hearing the details of what she has to go through on a daily basis, it reminded me of those who endure chemo therapy.  Her medication has several side effects but the good news is that she is seeing a specialist on the 21^st, which gives me some relief.  I told her she might want to get surgery and she said that by doing that it would eliminate any future possibility of having this happen.  

Again, according to the facts, most people who have this don’t get infections.  Therefore, if that’s the case it’s called Diverticulotis.  So, my mom is kind of within the minority of people with the problem.  I’m so proud of her for being so strong, I told her that I love her and wish I was there to help her.  That day I heard the news, I was honestly looking for some cheering up, but my room mate just told me “not to worry about it,” and that he has had many patients who have had that and that it was “no big deal.”  But, that didn’t help.  If I had to be honest, there was still an empty worrying and even lonely part of me that was just wanting her.  

Living in Texas, under severe heat and high humidity and having her forced to change her diet from “normal” food to strictly liquid and maybe some tuna (however, going with that with caution), not being able to sleep and have her go through, what she said was “restless nights,” my heart went out to her.  I miss her touch, her smile, her laugh, her perfume, her comforting words, God, I miss her.  Should she die because of surgery, all hell will break loose.  She will be taking care of this and the doctor and team better know what they are doing.

Meet Me “At The Club!”

You know, I think we all need to get out and have fun.  I think we all need to take chances, take risks, live life and learn lessons on our own.  This doesn’t mean doing stupid dumb things, like jumping from a third story building with the intentions of landing on a trampoline but just going beyond what you might consider “the safe zone.”  An example for me is clubbing. 

Now, I’ve recently enjoyed the clubbing atmosphere.  The more I go clubbing the more I feel open, free and comfortable.  This is not just a great way to meet people, but I also believe that it’s a great way to workout, have a drink or two and just have fun. 

So, let me encourage you, the reader, get out there.  Don’t get all tied up with work, because if you stick to your “stressful schedule,” it will ruin you.  Loosen the belt, relax and have some fun.  Recharge the battery, put some gas in the car and get out and have some fun.  It may not be to the length of clubbing, especially if you aren’t in that kind of thing, but do something new and what others have considered exciting.  Like, going for a run really late at night, going bowling, miniature golfing………….or, yes, clubbing!!!!!  There are only good things that come from it.  So, for you, finish this sentence, “Meet Me ‘________’.”